Been gone a long time....

I used to Blog a lot, but stopped just due to time and not having enough of it....but lately with all that is happening in my life and how busy I am sometimes I just need an outlet....so I have decided to write again....with all my family on the other side of the world and my closest friend, the one I truly trust with anything I tell her, living in Singapore, sometimes I feel very isolated and alone with my thoughts and feelings......even though I am married to a wonderful man, not everything can be understood or shared by him....nor do I expect him to understand how I feel about being so far from my family, especially my niece and nephew whom I do miss as I am not getting to see them grow up.....I think that fact that I have my own son, now makes me realize just what I am missing with them.  It is tough not having any of my own blood here, no sister to go sit and have a chat to, a coffee with, a whinge with about things, small things that sometimes only sisters get.....I do miss her.  My older sister particularly.  And it is not the same over the phone.  Sometimes you just want to drive over and hang out and pot some plants, fold some clothes, just be together and laugh about stupid things.........I have been in the US now for 12 years and I have found it hard to find true friends, I have other women who we talk and share play dates or horse stuff with, but true honest to goodness friend?  No.  It is not easy.