It is really hard to be tough sometimes, to be strict and make my little boy behave himself.....it takes a lot of grit and determination to stand your ground, when your little guy is crying mummy mummy mummy....and you know that you cannot give in because then you are done for......oh but how it weighs on my heart and how it wears me out sometimes emotionally......I talk to other mums and they sometimes say to me "oh, I just cannot be bothered with the fight"....and I get them....I understand......I see the strain and the tiredness in their eyes.......it is hard work to be a good parent. It is not easy. It is easy to be a bad parent. I want to be a good one. I want my little boy to learn the rules and grow up to be a pleasant little boy - just like he is now.....but man that takes work. Once I say no to something I cannot go back, I cannot then turn around and say yes. I am just laying the ground work for more problems in the future if I do. So sometimes, like today, when I have said No, I need to stand my ground and suffer my emotions and just deal with it......
And give myself a break and tell myself that it is OK for me to be upset, that it is not easy and some days are going to be tougher than others.......
